today has been a total roller coaster for me. lots of strong surges of emotions, many occasion of mixed feelings etc. dead tired.


don't want to comment too much in case i get into trouble.


main things that happened today:
1. read the tkd blog and got a shock. :
2. din do 2.4, practised 5 items and realise how unfit i am. :s
3. played more pokemon! -grins at ky-((((:
4. pre-pw results release during math lesson. ^^
5. pw results release!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D
6. dozed off in front of ktay during bio.
7. impromptu training. ))))))))))):
8. kidsREAD! C:
9. found aunty grace and phua en. laughs.
10. script needs editing again. >.<




and my blocks are sucky. like failed to meet the 50% mark for 4/5 of my subjects. i'm not as good as i think i am and currently, all my toe nails are breaking off! mmm interesting eh?





am i up to it?
am i hoping for too much?
am i giving myself unnecessary stress?
am i running away from myself?
am i still myself?



for every question asked, there is a different problem related to it.
for every question asked, it will be answered one day.
for every question asked, it is much deeper than you think it is.
for every question asked, i wonder...





why isn't my mom worried about my sister meeting this online friend alone?
is there nothing but pure selfishness?

sometimes i don't comprehend myself.
like now.
this post is totally random and does not flow.
and i just realised that i'm not talking and thinking consistently.