i've always been thinking.


and now, i'm actually quite convinced by myself.


the fact that i din do it this time makes me feel better. ((:


i need to build up my self-confidence. and be sure of myself.


be less self conscious, more open and happier!


i've finally penned it down, to celebrate that moment of enlightenment.


dued long long time ago.


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okays. was just being random. had to write it down somewhere or it'll keep bugging me. hahaha! anyways, i've just read an email from a long long time ago and i found it very touching. it just struck a chord in me.

since i'm unable to paste the whole email here, i'll just state the crux of it.


"Learn to let go of your sorrow, while counting your blessings."


the analogy used was very apt in driving the point. hmmm should you be interested in it, just tell me! tag or whatever. ((: you may not share the same sentiment as me though, so don't think that its so so so great! hahahas!


anyway, i was sick on friday. woke up with a splitting headache and fever. ate medicine and zonked out immediately even before i msg to inform mdm tay and the class. woke up at 11 plus to reply them.

ate a second dose of medicine and packed the house a little. tried to read some newspaper but failed after a while cuz i felt too tired. went back to sleep from 2 plus to about 4 before finally decided to go and find a doctor.

walked around the whole neighbourhood to find that no doctors are available in the afternoon so went home to sleep again. until it was 7 plus. bathed and then went to see doctor lim. he's as smiley and patient as usual. gave me an mc too! hahahs yay! but thankfully my fever dropped to 37.3 degrees celcius, so don't need medicine. heehee.

after that, uncle gc came to fetch me to his house for a mini gathering. was rather bored cuz the adults din gamble. but we lou hei again! hahaha yay! a mini highlight. then after that, wei cheang, wei jie, my sister and i decided to play dai dee. played a few rounds before progressing to asshole daidee. we each had the share of being the king and queen i think but i won the last game before leaving.

then this afternoon, went to auntie vivienne's house to eat porridge for lunch! quite nice! heehee. slacked and watched some teevee before going to uncle st's house. reached there and ate sushi! hahahah! super nice! -grins- then wei cheang, xiu hue, my sister and i decided to play mahjong but found out that wei cheang's grandmother brought home the mahjong. so only had the table! -.- hahaha! so we ended up gambling! played blackjack. wei cheang was the zhuang and my sister and i both lost 3.50 to him! whoah, he won big bucks! hahaha!and everytime i cut the deck of cards, he'll get blackjack. so i never cut the deck anymore! hhahaha! the adults too had their share of fun by giving us 'wong lai' to eat, 'huat' stickers etc. hahah!

then came to my house for dinner. pizza! from pizza de french. something like that. i like the crust! super nice! ((: played a few rounds of mahjong with xiu hue, uncle fahjoon and jian min. the rest went gambling with aunty vivienne as the zhuang. haha! she played in place of uncle gc and he won 15.70 i think! loads of ten cents twenty cents coins! hahaha! all from the kids! heehee.

after which, at around 8 plus, my family, together with my ah ma went to visit lao gou. and on our way there, my elder sister called my phone from australia! ((: put her on loud speaker, though it wasn't very loud. haha! i miss her so much! but i'm glad she's settling down fine. hope she get her ***** back soon! ((:

reached home at around 10 plus 11, after watching a bit of chingay and jia you xi shi in her house. and here i am!


okays gtg clean up my house now. from the mess from dinner! :s
happy chu jiu! ((: