okays so the school term has started and for 2 weeks already. just to comment that the first week was really tiring. but this week was somehow not as tiring, not sure why.

but still, i feel like sleeping everyday. can't stay awake to finish up my homework or finish reading the newspaper. always sleep first then wake up to do work, like what i am doing nowww! trying to keep awake during boring school lessons. not econs and chem though. i feel so energised seeing mdm yeoh and ms phua (i don't know how to spell her other name.) YAY! they are my favourite teachers in the school! -beams-

oh yes, i remember being really stressed during the first week, when everyone started talking and reminding us about a's. but it was quite good to see everyone again!

















but i'm still puzzledpisseddisappointedangryirritatedfrustratedtireddisgusted about something. really did some self reflection and suddenly became very self conscious again. sort of found out the root problem but not sure if it really is. decided to not care and i feel STUPID for even CARING for goodness sake. trying to lift the big boulder that is pressing down on me but that's gonna take some time and strength. (yes, i pick up the hint to exercise more to be fitter.) so yes, please bear with my stoning self these few days. but its seriously disturbing and energy wasting. so please, just go away and don't make my life so dreary and difficult! they say i should change instead of asking the situation to go away cuz its easier and a more effective way to reduce the problem. feel like cursing, now. oh someone please help me! i feel so foolish to have fallen into that trap.
now i'm hoping hard, really hard that, this situation will NEVER happen to me again EVER but i know its IMPOSSIBLE cuz the society is just so.... URGHH.


okay okay okay okay okay. everything will turn out fine, don't worry mei! positive thinking, law of attraction! think positive, think happy, think fun! may mei be happy, be grateful, be smiley everyday!

feel a little lighter now. in just like 5 sentences.

good job mei! ((:




but i still need a break.








speaking about break,

CHINESE NEW YEAR IS COMING!!!!!!!!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

I HOPE CHINESE NEW YEAR LAST FOREVER AND EVER, SO EVERYONE WILL BE HAPPY FOREVER AND EVER. AND EVERYDAY WILL BE SO JOYFUL AND FULL OF GOODIES AND GOODNESS IN THE WHOLE WORLD (if everyone celebrates chinese new year that is. hahahahha!)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH!!
CHINESE NEW YEAR MAKES MEI HAPPY!
YES, PLEASE LET ME FORGET ABOUT THE UNHAPPINESS IN MY LIFE AND CARVE ALL THE GOOD TIMES IN MY HEART SO IT'LL NEVER FADE AWAY.
LIFE CAN BE SO MEANINGFUL AND FANTASTIC IF WE KNOW HOW TO LIVE IT.
WHEEEEEEEEEEE!


i'm weird. one moment i'm so fjeiohgeiojfogj, the other i'm high and all.
hahaha. trying to bluff my brains that i'm happy so i won't be wjeiofjeiog anymore. hahahaha!
lalalalaal.








you should really stop lying to everyone and yourself, stupid mei.