HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KAHYIM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!

YAY! so kahyim turned 18 and legal today! so sad we din have a cake or even get to sing her a birthday song! but its okay, its here! hahaha! OH! and if only we were born like a year earlier, then we'd have all been able to get our driving license after a's! now, we all have to wait till 21! ))): but that means we get to be fetched around more instead of driving! like some important person! think positive and ignore the other side of the argument! -grins-


okays. maybe that's why i fail gp. hmmm. which reminds me, i want to rewrite my essay which i failed horribly! gotta improve on my vocab and grammar skills first and so i shall come up with a mega plan for gp! i hope i will conscientiously and strictly follow that plan and see how my standard is after 1 month. hopefully there's enough time for me to experiment before a's arrive at my doorstep! :s sighh! somebody help me!


anyway, lessons today are quite okayish. the day wasn't too long cuz only 3 lessons and ct. bio lecture for one half hour was quite entertaining with mr nah. the beginning of the lecture, he was breathing very heavily into the mike! i thought someone controlling the system was being spooky until he told us about it! hahaha. oh wells, now its mdm tay taking us for lecture!

biobiobiobio! bio spa skill d on friday! i kind of dread spa, really. i don't like practicals! did i mention before? when i did o's practicals, when we had to pour the mixtures, be it bio or chem, my hands will always be shaking! super nervous. but thankfully skill b is already over so its mostly just written work so NOT THAT BAD! hahahha. hope i don't do too badly in all my spa!

chem tutorial was rather lively with ms phua! hahaha she attempted to make shengwei and zhengtao hold hands! hahahaha! 2 big guys holding hands! LOL. oh wells, she was trying to demonstrate precipitation but it turned out quite a fun lesson! hahahas.

ct was on total defence but the special guest was hmmm. quite funny. oh wells, he himself admitted he was rather disorganised. but overall, its much more entertaining than other ct sessions. at least we got to watch films! din quite understand the changi murals at first. but the drawings were wonderfully done! and boy, the actors were really skinny! stranger was quite okay. but the ns one, can't remember the title, was perhaps something we can all relate to better so i thought it was the nicest of all. afterwhich, he showed us some trailers cuz we couldn't watch it since it was m18. hahaha kahyim can! hehe. then he tried to crap until it was 2 pm so he could let us go. but announcements dragged until it was 2.30! kind of felt a little annoyed cuz i needed to pee urgently.

oh yes. i realised i've been feeling rather impatient nowadays. like for no reason, i'll just feel very uneasy but i don't know what's wrong. i'm think i'm going crazy!

hahaha ching and lynn's junior is very cute! haha total mommy's boy! very open and talkative! can just chat with anyone! so rare to find such a guy now cuz everyone else is 'cool'. hahahha!

training today wasn't that bad. ran 2 rounds around the school! the beginning was quite tiring cuz not used to running yet but the second round was much better than the first! after the ran, i realised that my stamina is really down to level zero!! gotta start building up my stamina again and keep fit so i won't give in so easily to sickness or stress this important year!

some kicks here and there and i got heat burns from kicking the big target! nice one man. hahaha seriously dumb. like who on earth gets burns from kicking except me? hahaha. then tried back hook! quite an interesting kick! hopefully i can get do backthrust better now with the help of backhook! should be the other way around actually but my backthrust really cmi. hahah! then did a bit of pattern before dimissing! training again on sat with ex ex ex senior! the pattern queen! hopefully i can learn something from her and not embarrass myself during the comps! hahhaha. quite tyco to be selected cuz i'm super lousy. hahaha!


and i finally woke up at the correct stop on the way back home today! no longer oversleeping! okays i gotta go off now and reply to my mortal! wheeee! need to think of new template again but quite fun designing. but first, there's something wrong with my tummy. so toilet, here i come! ((:

mondays are short and fast but then we have the most number of tutorials. gp, math and econs. the slackest day is wednesday i think. only chem tutorial! but the only thing is that there's training which makes the day not-so-slack afterall.


oh wells, i found out who my angel is today. i already guessed she's yuqin alr. but just that i'm not so sure yet. confirmed it when i saw her letter to her angel. yuqin used the same kind of construction paper and handwriting! plus the same super strong double sided tape which we all had a very hard time removing! hahahhaa! oh wells, now that i know both my angel and mortal, i find it very weird if i see them in school! hahah like don't know whether to talk to them or not.

but i think by now, almost the whole class would have guessed their angels alr right? but i hope the afternoon incident wouldn't have revealed someone's angel! -crosses fingers!- hahaha. quite obvious though. hahaha!


anyways, i only slept for like 1.5 hours last night! thank goodness the day passed rather quickly so i wasn't falling asleep in any of the lectures! hahaha! cuz i was redoing the templates for both my angel and mortal after i accidentally ruined them! BUT THEN, i din have enough paper for shuren's one so had to just use white paper and randomly designed some quite ugly thing. hahahha! but apparently they say its nice. -.-" hahahha! and i should introduce some pictures or stickers to my letters cuz they are so wordy and so plain!


that reminds me that i should have gotten some stickers when i went to j8 just now! hmmm. spent quite some time deciding it with chelsea! but the trip was quite worth it cuz it turned out to be VERY NICE! hahaha both chelsea and i love it. ((: YAY! wanted to buy earrings but decided against it cuz i wasn't sure if they'd match my new clothes! hahaha. hmmm my clothes are not red this year, i realised! more of purple, yellow green and white? hahaha. not to worry cuz sherene happily bought a new pair of BLACK jeans for cny! laughs. hopefully she have time to get another pair before cny! there's ONE WEEK LEFT! WHEEEEEE! i love chinese new year! lalalalallaala. though it means that my sister will be leaving us but that's another issue altogether cuz i still get to spend cny with her! -grins-



on a heavier note, got back my gp essay today and i FAILED really badly! sighh. gotta do a lot more work for geepee! currently not in the mood to start working for anything yet. but i think i see the light on how to improve on my essays. quite excited about it but i think i'm gonna need MORE guidance on it. hopefully i can work hard and get my beloved a! hehehehe.



ah! i forgot to mention. dinner was funny! my mom bought a ready made emperor chicken from ntuc! hahahaha. its already cooked so all we needed to do was to heat it up. cut up the outer plastic and took out the chicken wrapped in aluminium foil. i was about to put the whole thing into the wok, thinking that its something like bbq where you heat up the thing with the aluminium wrap, before my mom asked me to open up the aluminium to check out the chicken! hahahha! luckily i did that cuz otherwise if i cooked the chicken like that, the plastic would have melted! laughs. anyway, the emperor chicken is rather delicious! and the sauce is very sweet!


anyway, i just realised that i'm able to sleep almost everywhere! like on the bus, on the train. and my sleeping poses are super unglam, or so says my sister. on the way back home from j8, i wasn't feeling very exhausted, but after i got a sit on the right side of the 2 seater on the train, i leaned on my right and prepared to sleep. i was really resting and feeling totally peaceful until suddenly i woke up at jurong east interchange. i realised that no one was sitting beside me anymore and my body was slanted to the left instead! then on the usual bus trips home, i'd either lean too much towards the aisle or towards the person beside me. i seem to have forgotten how to sleep nicely on the bus! hmmmm. must go and re-learn the art again! hahaa.


i shall go change my blogskin. its too black for new year! hahahhas.

oh no! SATURDAY IS ENDING SOON! like again!

SIGHH!

the week pass so fast! but the lessons pass so slow! oh my goodness. why can't it be the other way? hahahaha! then i'll have more time to do homework, slack and understand lessons. apparently, there are only 2 terms for us to complete all the j2 work. and that means only 20 weeks. and 3 weeks have already passed! -screams- and i'm still lost in vectors and all the equations in the intro to macro econs!

the only that is fun and makes the day is the angel and mortal game! hahaha! the surprise and excitement when you get a letter from either one. the joyous moments when you suddenly get enlightened about what to give them. the fun moments when you get something interesting back from them! ((:

BUTTT.
just after 2 letters, i'm exposed. sianz. HAHAHHAH! and the whole thing was super funny.
in the morning before flag raising on friday.
me: ______, can you help me take (my mortal's name's) angel?
(turned around and to my horror, my mortal was standing nearby!)
in cp before flag raising
me: ______, did you hear what name i said just now?
______: (my mortal's name) right?
me: crap. do you know he was standing behind me? ahhhhhhh. hahaha!
______: haha. but i think he din hear.
morning after pe
______(very loudly): eh i told you alr he din hear
(turned around and i saw my mortal behind)
me: ahhhhh!
and my reaction was super big, cuz i was shocked. like one moment so relieved, the other moment great horror. MAYBE if i hadn't reacted so violently, he might not have found out. and my reaction is very exaggerated. cuz like accidents do happen and i should not be so affected by it. stupid mei. its not such a big deal. so aa. no wonder others can't stand you, mei.


but now, since its revealed, i can safely add everyone online! ((: and my mortal's such a cute xiao di di! he wanted to take revenge! hahahahaha! but aiyah. its only a game so yeah. at least i still don't know who my angel is! hahaha! can still play the game! yepyep.


oh yes, and i went down for the dance session! with ky! ((: and i must comment that her memory's so good! she can remember the steps but i kept forgetting. not a dance person as you can see. and my moves are like rigid. hahaha.

okays, shall end off here! good night!

wheeeeeeeeeee.

okays so the school term has started and for 2 weeks already. just to comment that the first week was really tiring. but this week was somehow not as tiring, not sure why.

but still, i feel like sleeping everyday. can't stay awake to finish up my homework or finish reading the newspaper. always sleep first then wake up to do work, like what i am doing nowww! trying to keep awake during boring school lessons. not econs and chem though. i feel so energised seeing mdm yeoh and ms phua (i don't know how to spell her other name.) YAY! they are my favourite teachers in the school! -beams-

oh yes, i remember being really stressed during the first week, when everyone started talking and reminding us about a's. but it was quite good to see everyone again!

















but i'm still puzzledpisseddisappointedangryirritatedfrustratedtireddisgusted about something. really did some self reflection and suddenly became very self conscious again. sort of found out the root problem but not sure if it really is. decided to not care and i feel STUPID for even CARING for goodness sake. trying to lift the big boulder that is pressing down on me but that's gonna take some time and strength. (yes, i pick up the hint to exercise more to be fitter.) so yes, please bear with my stoning self these few days. but its seriously disturbing and energy wasting. so please, just go away and don't make my life so dreary and difficult! they say i should change instead of asking the situation to go away cuz its easier and a more effective way to reduce the problem. feel like cursing, now. oh someone please help me! i feel so foolish to have fallen into that trap.
now i'm hoping hard, really hard that, this situation will NEVER happen to me again EVER but i know its IMPOSSIBLE cuz the society is just so.... URGHH.


okay okay okay okay okay. everything will turn out fine, don't worry mei! positive thinking, law of attraction! think positive, think happy, think fun! may mei be happy, be grateful, be smiley everyday!

feel a little lighter now. in just like 5 sentences.

good job mei! ((:




but i still need a break.








speaking about break,

CHINESE NEW YEAR IS COMING!!!!!!!!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

I HOPE CHINESE NEW YEAR LAST FOREVER AND EVER, SO EVERYONE WILL BE HAPPY FOREVER AND EVER. AND EVERYDAY WILL BE SO JOYFUL AND FULL OF GOODIES AND GOODNESS IN THE WHOLE WORLD (if everyone celebrates chinese new year that is. hahahahha!)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH!!
CHINESE NEW YEAR MAKES MEI HAPPY!
YES, PLEASE LET ME FORGET ABOUT THE UNHAPPINESS IN MY LIFE AND CARVE ALL THE GOOD TIMES IN MY HEART SO IT'LL NEVER FADE AWAY.
LIFE CAN BE SO MEANINGFUL AND FANTASTIC IF WE KNOW HOW TO LIVE IT.
WHEEEEEEEEEEE!


i'm weird. one moment i'm so fjeiohgeiojfogj, the other i'm high and all.
hahaha. trying to bluff my brains that i'm happy so i won't be wjeiofjeiog anymore. hahahaha!
lalalalaal.








you should really stop lying to everyone and yourself, stupid mei.

so the day after the vietnam trip, i went for peiwei's church's christmas concert. with yan! and paid off my debts. hahahaha! din know he's from a chinese church. yeah.